Linguistic Mourning

I must write to get you off my chest
I must say to you want needs to be said
I must move on to find a better day
I must look forward because its the only way

I know you never meant to do me any wrong
I know I find it hard to believe that your love is gone
I know the pain I feel will eventually fade away
I know the light will shine through a sky of grey

I believed you when you told me all the lies you did
I believed we would last forever fighting amongst the midsts
I believed there was something worth fighting for
I believed life would bring you and you would give me more

I tried to let you be and make the right decision for you
I tried to find it in my heart but I was forced to remain true
I tried for many months to move forward with my life
I tried to heal the pain by pulling out your knife

I waited for you at first of course because the love runs deep
I waited for the love you brought and left on bended knee
I waited for the truth of who you really were
I waited too long because now you are no more

I sensed that trouble was lurking and ignored my inner gutt
I sensed that you were nothing but a no good flee bitten mutt
I sensed the truth and denied it and gave you all I had
I sensed all I went through with you from the good to the bad

I have to take advantage of what little time I have left
I have to try and do whats right and make it all the best
I have a hole in my heart that seems unfillable
I have to find a way so I don't cry for you tomorrow

I hate what you have done to me and the pain that you have caused
I hate when I look at you or hear your name I pause
I hate that I can't get over it because you betrayed my trust
I hate that you left me dirty, tainted and with disgust

I would have reciprocated all the wrong that you have done
I would try to hurt you because revenge can be fun
I would do anything I can to bear my broken heart to you
I would but karma can do more damage than I can ever do

I leave you with your words and lies waiting to haunt your soul
I leave you with all the wrong you've done with a 1 way ticket to hell
I leave you with my misery as I journey to the sky
I leave you with my love... this is another goodbye