Alone

Alone
With no one to hold me tight
I cry
Not truly understanding the reasons why
I'm here
Everyday is a struggle to survive
More tears
No courage or strength to continue the fight
The fear
Takes over and the battle is lost
The pain
Of love always comes with a cost
I remain
Numb without anyone to trust

But I push on waiting for a miracle
Hoping for the best
Yet each day that passes by
Continues looking like the rest

Again
I have lost my sense of self
To doubt
Wishing for an easy way out
I smile
While wiping my tears away
Discouraged
Just trying to make it through today
Jaded
Never did I deserve to feel this pain
Tormented
Trapped inside and hidden by lies
I'll say it once again
I'm alone

Yet somehow I find a way
By hoping for the best
That all this hurt's not in vane
But simply just a test

I'm unfocused
Deceived by the many I've met
I believed
I had nothing but the past to forget
The future
Holds nothing of interest to me
I wait
Hoping the world will help me see
I'm wrong
And I'm my only enemy
Yet still
The pain lingers and I'm engulfed
With misery
Dying for a resolution

No miracles in sight
Unable to get some rest
I fight a losing fight
Not knowing what is best

Enraged
By the wrong you've done to me
Engaged
In the darkness trying to flee
From hate
Yet I have no where I can run
Because
I am alone
So cold
The world has proven to be
No remorse
Casting shadows over me
I'm alone
Frightened by destiny