I'm blessed

Everything changes
Atoms divide
Cells multiply
Flowers bloom
Summer dies
Snow melts
Clocks tick
Hair grows
People age
Memories fade
Drifting away
Gone astray
Nothing ever stays the same
Goodbye
I have turned the page
New day

History

It's in my darkest hour
When my pain drops me to my knees
That I look around and find
No one is comforting me

It's in my deepest suffering
Where the animal in me breathes
Fiercely protective
Destroying any sympathy

The struggle to survive
An attack that's bitter sweet
Becomes an inner battle
And my heart my brain does siege

Taking in no captives
Beheading all it sees
Leaving behind a bloody trail
That represents my misery

In my darkened hollow
Is where I celebrate my victory
And realize that come tomorrow
We will be nothing but history

Just Let Me Be!

Abound with rage
Fuelled with distrust
One may seek to remedy the negativity felt within
Through disarray
Verbal hyperbole
A defence may inadvertently appear as an attack
Though I wish to disengage
My pride ignites
And my ego supersedes the logic of id and balance is lost
Weighted down
By emotions
I set my endeavours no longer to get better but to get even
Adrenalin builds up
All senses are dulled
And the violent thrusts of my broken heart is demonstrated in another mans head
Limits are pushed
Truths denied
So all that is left is the numbness that hides the tears I've cried
What has become of me?
Who is this I see?
Another broken reflection of what could have been but will no longer be
It is in this sad truth
That began on your lies
That tore us apart and had God lower His eyes upon me
I ask for forgiveness
For no longer being
The truth I know that lives inside of me that is buried beneath my experience of me
Though I want to blame
And I want to beseech
The only one who truly has a problem is me and so to The Lord I retreat
Safe from you
Safe from me
Goodbye doesn't have to be painful, it just has to be!