You Want Me

You say you want me

Yet you know nothing of me

Tell me you would love me

That you'd be my one and only

So I sit back and observe

I watch your actions, not words

To see if what you say

Is exactly what you mean

As time goes by I see

That it isn't really me you want

But my body that you seek

This pretty face has you weak

I invite you into my world

I let you see bits and pieces

Of who this woman I call me is

I show you my darkness first

For to experience the light

You must learn to fight

You must stand firm in your words

If it is me you seek

The woman of your dreams

I need you to show me

All your masculinity

Let me visualize your inner strength

Guide me gently to your freedom

So I can show you my fears and insecurities

Let me know you got this

I want to taste your soul

Become wildly out of control

Intrigued with your mentality

Impassioned by your physique

I want to escape this reality

And experience all your sensuality

But first I need to see

If it is really me you want

So if I show you my bad and my ugly

Its because I need to know

If you really want me

Or if you want the facade 

And what the world wants me to be

Set Me Free

Your actions
Whether deliberate or unintentional
Show me who you are
Your words
Spew utterances of valour and hope
And reveal
Who you want to be
Behind closed doors
You're someone different
Unmasked and tainted
When they are opened
The world sees a stranger
Even to yourself
One minute
A man of honour and duty
The next
A snake enticing Eve with forbidden fruit
But I see all fifty shades of your grey
And as unpredictable as you try to be
I still love and adore you
Cause you are no more chameleon than me
I know your bluff, your lies and your truth
You are easy to see right through
I know every hand, every game, every move
Because I have played them better than you
Yet through your imperfections
One thing remains unseen
The part of you that is God's gift
Hidden from all and me
The love that filled you up with air
And gave you life to breathe
Is the part of you I'm in love with dear
And the reason I won't leave
I believe inside you lives
A man who wants to be free
Just like there lives a woman
Deep inside of me

I'm blessed

Everything changes
Atoms divide
Cells multiply
Flowers bloom
Summer dies
Snow melts
Clocks tick
Hair grows
People age
Memories fade
Drifting away
Gone astray
Nothing ever stays the same
Goodbye
I have turned the page
New day

History

It's in my darkest hour
When my pain drops me to my knees
That I look around and find
No one is comforting me

It's in my deepest suffering
Where the animal in me breathes
Fiercely protective
Destroying any sympathy

The struggle to survive
An attack that's bitter sweet
Becomes an inner battle
And my heart my brain does siege

Taking in no captives
Beheading all it sees
Leaving behind a bloody trail
That represents my misery

In my darkened hollow
Is where I celebrate my victory
And realize that come tomorrow
We will be nothing but history

Just Let Me Be!

Abound with rage
Fuelled with distrust
One may seek to remedy the negativity felt within
Through disarray
Verbal hyperbole
A defence may inadvertently appear as an attack
Though I wish to disengage
My pride ignites
And my ego supersedes the logic of id and balance is lost
Weighted down
By emotions
I set my endeavours no longer to get better but to get even
Adrenalin builds up
All senses are dulled
And the violent thrusts of my broken heart is demonstrated in another mans head
Limits are pushed
Truths denied
So all that is left is the numbness that hides the tears I've cried
What has become of me?
Who is this I see?
Another broken reflection of what could have been but will no longer be
It is in this sad truth
That began on your lies
That tore us apart and had God lower His eyes upon me
I ask for forgiveness
For no longer being
The truth I know that lives inside of me that is buried beneath my experience of me
Though I want to blame
And I want to beseech
The only one who truly has a problem is me and so to The Lord I retreat
Safe from you
Safe from me
Goodbye doesn't have to be painful, it just has to be!

Take Care

I thought I had found the one
Once again I was proven wrong
I didn't want to believe it
But now everything we had is gone

I thought I could trust you
I believed everything you said was true
Now when you say you love me
All I feel is numb and subdue

I thought we would make it
I gave everything I had to give
Only to be betrayed and deceived
And now I gotta fight to live

I wanted to be your wife
To your child I wanted to give life
You threw it all away
Over one dark and lonely night

My pain will turn to strength
For you I have that to thank
On that I bid you adieu
And care is all I wish you to take

Seven sides of me

Love...

Caught in my head
Or lost in my heart
One body collided
Two worlds apart

Dreams...

A vision so magical
Or a distant memory
A fragment to inspire
With a touch of reality

Hope....

That keeps me going
Even when times are rough
A tragedy on fire
But it isn't quite enough

Fears...

They look me in my eyes
And pierce my weakened soul
God please hear my cries
Before I lose all control

Vanity...

A childish inquisition
Leading one to boast
Yet even pride will diminish
The one who lusts the most

Anger...

Buried so deep within
Padded with bitter resent
I can feel it just under my skin
Waiting for me to repent

Me...

A multifaceted being
With a variety of faces to choose
Someone so unique
Let me be your muse